McFatty Monday

I'm sure some may read this post title and think "oh geese, here she goes again, talking about herself all negatively" but actually, McFatty Monday's are found all over the interwebz and I've been inspired by Blair over at to start my own McFatty posts! Since this is my first, I'll break down my weight loss struggle...I mean Journey...and where I am at right now.

During my pregnancy with Emily I packed on a whopping 85lbs! I won't bore you with the details of how healthy I eat month after month but still managed to gain a 5th grader in the process, but I will say that the number on the scale come delivery day was totally Biggest Looser Show qualifying. After Emily's birth, 30lbs fell off and then my Weight Watchers journey began. I'd been a member in years past and had great success and assumed it would be easy to jump back in. YAH RIGHT! Add a newborn, an out of work hubby, and a little brother living with us who can eat whatever he wants still stay rain thin, and I was totally set for destruction! I had no idea why the program wasn't working. I didn't want to admit my gorging out on Doritos and cookies one day and then starving the next, wasn't healthy. The scale didn't lie and my WW journey was no success at all.

Fast Forward to Gavin's delivery and the 30lbs I thought would fall off that didn't and the 7lbs I gained at 3 weeks post partum and I'm back at WW! Before Gavin was born I had a master plan; WW on Monday mornings and the gym every week day from 9am-10:15am, getting me home in time to shower and take over kid-duty before the hubby rolls off to work. The first week was great, I about died when I saw my weight at my weight in, but was motivated and hit the gym three days. The following week life happened and I only hit the gym twice, but had a 6.8lb weight loss my first week on WW. Then the next week happened, a 1.4lb loss after a week of not counting points or working out....then a week skipping a weigh in and hitting the Starbucks drive-thru three times....now here I am, 6 weeks into WW and 9 weeks post partum. I am down 9lbs after a +.8 at this weeks weigh in and a new outlook. I've decided when craving hits or when I think I'm too busy or tired to make a good food choice and want to opt for the quick and easy, to remind myself MY KIDS ARE WORTH MORE! Worth more then a cookie or a hot pocket because it's east, worth more then the Cake Pop at Starbucks, they are just plain worth more!

I know weight loss is suppose to be something we do for ourselves. Our workouts are suppose to be for us, to help us feel better about ourselves. But I've realized for me, where I am at with my journey in motherhood, I have to find my motivation from my kids. I want to be fit and have healthy habits for them. To teach them what a healthy dinner plate looks like after an afternoon of running around the park and playing soccer. I want to be active WITH my kids and right now that means being active FOR my kids. I have a long way to go...63lbs to get down to 'wedding weight' and 75lbs to get to my WW 'beautiful, healthy weight'. It's a lot of weight and getting my body healthy and in shape is even more of a daunting task, but the past few days, when I've needed that extra boost of motivation, I say to myself "your kids are worth more" and I feel empowered enough in that moment to put the cookie down and take another step in the healthy direction.